This website was created in loving memory of my son Kevin F Baker.

Kevin was born  Jan 7, 1978 and passed away in  Tx. July 12,2005. 

Kevin is loved and missed more than words could ever describe.


There are no adequate words to describe the pain of losing a child. Everyday when I awake it' s as if my heart is torn out again. The thought of never seeing my child on this earth again is agony.

Kevin was born January 7, 1978 in  Ma. One month later the blizzard of "78 hit. We were in the house for 4 days before we could finally venture out. Luckily I had a case of diapers and was nursing.

Now I know we all say our child is the best baby.....but really Kevin was the best baby in the world. Kevin could talk before he could walk and his memorization skills were phenomenal. His favorite book was "The Fox and the Hound", and it was read to him so much that he memorized the book when he was about 2 years old. It was great fun to see folks expressions when I'd give Kevin the book and he'd "read" it, he even knew when to turn the pages.

Kevin was around 4 years old when our next door neighbor severely burned his face in a boating explosion. People shied away from this man, he had to call the bank before he went in so they'd know he was coming, but Kevin loved this man. He loved to sit on his lap and laugh and hug him. This man later on told me how much this meant to him. Even at 4 years old his heart was big and loving!

When Kevin was 4 and his brother was 2 we moved to Houston, Tx.

(MORE TO BE WRITTEN LATER....KEEP CHECKING BACK!) Thank you!

Kevin & Grandma together in heaven

Pennies from heaven!! I have found several pennies since Kevin passed. I believe my Angel sent them to me since they usually appear at a time when I need them the most. I love you my Angel...keep dropping pennies from heaven 





If Tears Could Build A Stairway

IF TEARS COULD BUILD A STAIRWAY
AND MEMORIES WERE A LANE
I WOULD WALK RIGHT UP TO HEAVEN
TO BRING YOU HOME AGAIN
NO FAREWELL WORDS WERE SPOKEN
NO TIME TO SAY GOODBYE
YOU WERE GONE BEFORE I KNEW IT
AND ONLY GOD KNOWS WHY
MY HEART STILL ACHES WITH SADNESS
AND SECRET TEARS STILL FLOW
WHAT IT MEANT TO LOSE YOU
NO ONE WILL EVER KNOW"
Anonymous


Should you go first

Should you go first and I remain
To walk the road alone,
I'll live in memory's garden, dear,
With happy days we've known.

In Spring I'll wait for roses red,
When fades the lilac blue,
In early Fall, when brown leaves call
I'll catch a gimpse of you.

Should you go first and I remain
For battles to be fought,
Each thing you've touched along the way
Will be a hallowed spot.
I'll hear your voice, I'll see your smile,
Though blindly I may grope,
The memory of your helping hand
Will buoy me on with hope.

Should you go first and I remain
To finish with the scroll,
No lenght'ning shadows shall creep in
To make this life seem droll,
We've known so much of happiness,
We've had our cup of joy,
And memory is one gift of God
That death cannot destroy.

Should you go first and I remain,
One thing I'd have you do:
Walk slowly down that long, long path,
For soon I'll follow you.
I'll want to know each step you take
That I may walk the same,
For some day down that long, long road
You'll hear me call your name.
-A.K. Rowswell 







MY CHILD

On the day God took you
I thought that I would die
I wondered where the time went?
I asked alot of whys??
With people all around me
I felt alone inside
From all their words of comfort,
I couldn't seem to hide,
I thought I might be dreaming
That I'd wake and find you here,
I thought "This can't be happening."
As I wiped another tear.
On the day that you were laid to rest
My heart broke yet again,
I wondered if the pain would end,
But mostly, I wondered when??
It's hard to be without you,
At times the days seem long,
Sometimes I just sit crying,
When there's really nothing wrong.
I wish we'd had more time,
Before your life was done.
I hope your resting peacefully,
My precious one









 Im Everywhere


Please don't mourn for me I'm still here,
though you don't see I'm right by your
side each night and day
And within your heart I long to stay
My body is gone but I'm always near
I'm everything you feel, see or hear
My spirit is free, but I'll never depart
As long as you keep me alive in your heart
I'll never wander out of your sight
I'm the brightest star on a summer night
I'll never be beyond your reach
I'm the warm moist sand when you're at the beach
I'm the colorful leaves when fall comes around
And the pure white snow that blankets the ground
I'm the beautiful flowers of which you're so fond
The clear cool water in a quiet pond
I'm the first bright blossom you'll see in spring
The first warm raindrop that April will bring
I'm the first ray of light when the sun starts to shine
And you'll see that the face in the moon is mine
When you start thinking there's no one to love you
You can talk to me through the Lord above you
I'll whisper my answer through the leaves on the trees
And you'll feel my presence in the soft summer breeze
I'm the hot salty tears that flow when you weep
And the beautiful dreams that come while you sleep
I'm the smile you see on a baby's face
Just look for me, I'm everyplace...


May God Bless You!!

(MORE TO BE WRITTEN LATER....KEEP CHECKING BACK!) Thank you!


Please light a candle if you visit so I know you've been here. I live to keep Kevin's memory alive!

Beause of you, I love a little more.
Because of you, I take time to give an extra kiss good-bye.
Because of you, I have a new favorite song.
Because of you, there may be dust on the window sill, and I don't care.
Because of you, I live today, before I worry about tomorrow.
Because of you, I don't give up quite as fast.
Because of you, I still believe iin rainbows.
Because of you, Now i can help or listen more.
Because of you, today I am me.



 







I lost my child today.
People came to weep and cry
As I just sat and stared, dry eyed.
They struggled to find words to say
To try and make the pain go away.
I walked the floor in disbelief.
I lost my child today.
I lost my child last month.
Most of the people went away.
Some still call and some still stay.
I wait to wake up from this dream
This can't be real--I want to scream.
Yet everything is locked inside,
God, help me, I want to die.
I lost my child last month.
I lost my child last year.
Now people who had came, have gone.
I sit and struggle all day long,
To bear the pain so deep inside.
And now my friends just question, Why?
Why does this mother not move on?
Just sits and sings the same old song.
Good heavens, it has been so long.
I lost my child last year.
Time has not moved on for me.
The numbness it has disappeared.
My eyes have now cried many tears.
I see the look upon your face,
"She must move on and leave this place."
Yet I am trapped right here in time.
The songs the same, as is the rhyme,
I lost my child......Today.

~Netta Wilson




What My Child Has Taught Me

I've learned that you can keep going long after you think you can't.
I've learned that learning to forgive takes a lot of practice.
I've learned that friends can become strangers, and strangers can become friends.
I've learned that ignorance isn't an excuse for the lack of compassion.
I've learned that some people will never, ever - "get it".
I've learned that the community of sorrow is the strongest of all.
I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.
I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of minutes.
I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon.
I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words.
It may be the last time you see them.
I've learned that love isn't measured by the amount of time you have with someone.
I've learned that some sorrow is so deep that it has no words.
But so is love.

                                   







THIS IS NOT THE END.......

HE'S JUST CHANGED HIS ADDRESS

Thank You Cindy for the beautiful graphics.